Site activation on Sunday 16th November
Lynnes Notes Condensed Radcliffe Tower
Hollies Notes 21/11/25 post site visit notes – Radcliffe tower
So crazy day, energies were high, lots of bonkers things happened, and I had a lot of insight into myself.
I thank Rachel for enabling us see what it’s like to have a constructive argument where we don’t run away, where we feel our feelings during it, where we learn to handle our emotion and calm ourselves down. As uncomfortable it was for some of us to remain in the circle and witness, it was healthy. We’re not always Going to get on. And energies, they have these weird tricks that they play on us to get this going in us, to fire us up. So if we can learn to repolarize that energy by keeping calm, keeping the argument constructive and riding it out and not splitting off or dividing I think the world would be a better place. This is where current culture is failing. I’ve had a lot of issues this week with my son being really unfairly punished at school. The school’s policy is to segregate so that children are excluded from playtime. I know we’ve come a long way since the cane days, but it’s still not right. It’s still unfair, it’s still exclusion when half the time they’re just being kids and making mistakes. Younger children especially are not purposefully naughty, but punishing them then creates naughty children. I can see from today’s events that exclusion from a group whether it’s by choice or not, whilst a big emotion is still lingering creates unhelpful egos. They need support from a grown up to help make sense of their huge feelings rather than being punished and left alone to create narratives of how everyone has wronged them.
I need to try and find time to draw that tree image that was etched into my light as I closed my eyes at 4.10pm when we had the sound healing. I think I grieved my grandma at this point of the day who died around about seven months ago. We didn’t have the best relationship. She was very cruel to my mother especially in her last few years. I felt very defensive over my mother during this time as I could see the negative impact that it was having on her. So it was hard for me to watch. By learning more about myself and my own neurodiversity I realised recently that my grandmother suffered from this also, without realising. She was under diagnosed and given medication for bipolar in the form of sedatives, which just allowed her to suppress the emotions whilst eating her up inside. The only thing that brought a smile to her face for a fleeting second was buying things and being the perfect consumer. Yeah, that’s the whole story. I know now she was so fearful, stressed, and tired of being on this earth. My mum had quite a strange childhood I think because of it. When the tuning fork session began and Sue prompted us to feel for any tight or sore spots my attention went straight to my right shoulder which I know is typically the masculine side. But I felt so much love for my mum. Sue encouraged us to carry on up the maternal line and I immediately thought about my grandma, and it all came flooding out with big sobs. I’d already started breathing quickly and deeply, like I was preparing for this before the event, which I now understand to be my meltdown signs.
The last visit taught me so much about my meltdowns, and since that day I haven’t been afraid of them which has transformed the relationship.
It’s like every ceremony now triggers one but they are needed. I recalled a documentary I watched a while ago called ‘crazy wise’ which explained that historically during shamanic times the more sensitive children were taken under the wing of the shamans to be the future witch doctors or healers of the tribe. During these times intuitiveness, affinity with nature and the ability to feel the emotions of others was valued and celebrated. We would have all danced around the fire together, banging our drums just like our ceremony today, so that these energies can be released in a healthy way with the support of the tribe. For a long time I’ve questioned why I’ve been given so much energy, and today I saw the purpose of this and my meltdowns. But instead today in our society, we get punished, berated and end up anxious and medicated since this environment is too harsh. But I now see that the neurodiverse are experienced high vibrational souls sent here to set the world free. Now I’ve done the work and reactivated my voice I will work to ensure these kids are heard and will succeed. I have a meeting at my son’s school coming up where I plan to voice my concerns over their punishments and ensure he is never isolated again. Big download day today, and I feel utterly exhausted but so grateful for everything learned.
Sending love to everyone I journeyed with today. I definitely feel closer and more connected as a result. Rachel reminded us after the argument that it’s not always going to be rainbows and fun, and I feel that seeing others showing their emotions in such a big way broke down some barriers. We are all made of the same stuff, are connected in ways we can’t imagine and vulnerable, which is amazing.
I feel lighter and more resilient than ever. I’ve proven to myself yet again that I can work with my meltdowns now and welcomed this one.
In the morning, whilst making breakfast I recall staring at the sky as I often to especially when it’s as gorgeous as that morning. There wasn’t a cloud and the blue was vivid, yet it was spoiled by the number of lines left by all the many planes that had passed through. Then throughout the day, I spotted a plane in the sky every few minutes. I also saw two helicopters which isn’t a common sight for me. I had been reading earlier in the work about Diana Coopers predictions of the ‘Golden era’ and recalled how overseas travel would soon be too expensive and would dwindle, we live in hope.
The amount of birds we saw was truly extraordinary, flying over in large groups and settling in nearby trees. They sounded like crows which I always thought to be more solitary, but they were out on mass today.
I tried to imagine the tower in its glory, what it might have looked like and how it might have fallen. I imaged it to be an impenetrable fortress due to the thick stone walls. Walking through the cemetery to get there, I read some of the headstones which had been there for over 200 years. I was shocked to see that some of the pathways were also headstones. There was an upsetting number of children that had been laid to rest at very young ages to make me appreciate our current time.
I thoroughly enjoyed the labyrinth walk I could sense everyone’s energy that I passed as I found the centre. On the way back to the house, my neck and shoulders relaxed, which was a shock as I hadn’t appreciated how tight they’d got.
Yesterday evening I had a strange pulse beginning at the top of my right leg. This continued into the following day.
My yawns were pretty spectacular all day. At one point it was as though my subconscious forgot to stop, and I was forced to wretch from a cold dry throat. It’s like they now feel safe to return. My mum reminded me recently how I yawned a lot as a child, but I think the anxiety gradually blocked them even though I’ve always been tired. But today I made up for it with a lifetimes worth of yawn being released over the course of the day. I feel lighter and more at peace than ever now.
Tasha Bear Radcliffe Tower WhatsApp 19th November –
“Me and my friend Sophie have been sharing ‘criers’ all week and she shared this one last night on the way home from our sound bath. I just thought you’d love this prayer.” attached the ‘water song’ by Carrie Tree. The summary of that song – it talks about humanity’s destructive relationship with water, recognising Earth as our body and water as our blood, pleading for awareness before it’s too late.
20th November -Voice Note. “I’m very gently coming out of an intense container. And just wanted to share a little bit about it because I think it’s going to be very relevant tomorrow. It’s all mother stuff. I don’t really vibe with Tarot cards I’m going to be straight up. I’m amazed by the tarot crew but they just don’t speak to me. Anyway, I got told to pull these cards from Mary Magdalene pack this morning at around 9am. That was before I started this container which was very beautifully held by fucking fabulous woman. Anyways, the three cards I pulled was Gaia, Miracles and Mother Mary. Mother Mary Card was all about my friends and family and illness. Which is very relevant in my life right now. The landowner where I live has become a very close friend over the last five years and he’s got cancer. That’s been its own journey this year together, but not together. Miracles Card was all about taking my own power, stepping into my own power. Gaia card was all about femininity, the gentleness and the rage. Shitting hell. Got to say, I’m not going to have much more words to be honest on that because I’m going to delve into some more writing. But I have just had one of my deepest held containers, server container, not psychedelics. All around mending mother wounds and going and getting my little soul fragments back in the underworld. Yes, Yes. Anyways, incredible stuff. I’ve got pages of writing that may bring to you Rachel. The channel is clearer when out of my hands. I will get the gems loaded onto a Google document. Not had much time so we’ll bring tomorrow.
Bimble bamble, tingle, tangle. Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow and step into the deepness of what I feel like tomorrow is going to bring.”
21st November Tasha Bear Voice Note. “Morning. Oh my god, what a day I had yesterday. It’s something massive shifted. I’m literally in my van, warming it up, defrosting it, watching the sun rise all morning. It’s been effing beautiful. Oh, absolutely beautiful. I’m very much looking forward to being with you lovely ladies. I’ve got my drum, yes, yes, yes and I got a few lovely bits that I feel called to bring. Anyways, brought my notepad-yes, yes, yes, my illegible handwriting. (Laughing out lou) I’m really looking forward to it.” After the activation and blessing at the labyrinth on the way to Radcliffe tower, Tasha gave Sue a lift they messaged chat as they had got lost and wanted the postcode being confirmed. They did arrive soon after. After the event that night,
Tasha Bear sent a video showing her log burner raging away. This was her voice note. “Finally on, going to be cosy, cosy. We need to say how amazing you all are and I’m very grateful for today. I’m going to write my notes up in the thingy tomorrow alongside some information about triangles and all them good things. Yay.” She then shared a link from the Billy project, which is a community fridge in Blackburn and also a food bank in Darwin.
22nd November Tasha Bear also shared a file about the Drama Triangle, how energy moves through it and how we can move into empowerment. She says “Some very basic info. I’ll find a video video later. In the sexuality community, we mainly use the wheel of consent to navigate going from Drama Triangle to empowerment triangle. It’s such a beautiful, simple system. There are more complex systems, such as non violent communication, but I have found the wheel of consent very easy to embody quickly.” She attached various files and said “lots of free resources here. And Betty Martin is a badass.”
At 7:42am Tasha Bear left a voice note “Good morning. Very grateful for yesterday. Thought I’d just say briefly, speaking on these things. So I have found for my whole life that when there’s like stuck energy, it’s because it’s moving in a triangle. I don’t know how to explain that further anyway, it shows up again and again in various ways in my life. I find when energy is actually moving and being allowed to be seen, witnessed and like held and transmuted, we need to search the system that has quadrants in it usually. And these two systems speak to that very beautifully.” She attached ‘the wheel of consent’ picture. “Hope some of that lands for you. Going to take some pics of my notes and send them over. Tasha Bear also shared a link by Sienna Johnson. “I also really, briefly, really recommend sienna’s work. She’s based in the north of UK, around Yorkshire and does online intro sessions to the wheel of consent. She’s a badass, and some of you might find her work valuable around those things.” Tasha Bear then shared hopono ho’oponopono link and one on Alex grey & the mindfold. Tasha Bear wrote “Anyways, put a mind fold connection. It’s really deep connection for me because this book ‘Sacred Mirrors- the visionary art of Alex Grey is one of several I have of his. This book I bought this for my 16th birthday. I saved up a lot of money. It’s one of the oldest things I still own that hasn’t been stolen from me or lost.” She laughs.” I remember it did go on a five year journey around London at one point, but managed to finally get back to me. It was a lot of money at the time for me to buy this book, and it’s got a very special place in my heart. So it’s just really lovely to hear about these things that teach the children with the mindfold and stuff. Was really relevant for me yesterday and then I’m just really looking forward to the next one. Being at Mandy’s, I can’t tell you what a effing circle that’s going to be for me about and all being related to the sister wounds. The energies that were coming up in yesterday’s triangle, just all very relevant. Hope you’re all having a good day.” Rachel replied she was watching the link by Alex grey and was so grateful, as his work is cosmic level and beyond. Tasha Bear replies, “I’m going to bring this book to our next one because I think it’s going to be on the altar. I’m just really feeling into some of the threads around this yesterday, The original artwork is massive, and they are literally sacred mirrors. I’ve been lucky enough to see a couple of them. I need to get to his gallery in America one day, one day. They are designed to be stood in front of. So they’re like a whole mirror frame that is made out of mirror and made for you to stand in front of and you see yourself reflected back. I feel like that is really you know, relevant for our deepenings and our communications that were happening last night about how we are all mirrors of each other, for each other’s wounds, each other’s fears, each other’s loves and all of them good things. I’m going to bring this book so you can get an idea of it. Just hearing the mind fold or talking about mind fold, I’m like, Do you know the person who made it? The artwork is so incredible. It’s like, I think our generation’s greatest gift. It’s such deep transmissions him and his wife. He has a lovely wife who’s an awesome artist. So that’s my sharings on that subject. Today I will bring this very precious to me book for the next altar. Yes !” Tasha Bear also attached a Tarot card called ‘Sophia’. “Very representative of my thought vision yesterday of Mother – nurture, gentle and fuck off.”
25th of November added these words “Ethics, Kambo, mushrooms, Rose, Aimee, the bureau, golden threads. These were the one word notes when we were at yours Rachel before the tower.”
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Amys Journal Notes
Maisies Notes from Whats App 22nd November
[13:46, 22/11/2025] MaisieEllis<3: A lot keeps coming to me aswell about how women perceive younger girls, I feel as they’ve grown up they lost that part of their self & shut their younger self out Xx
Example would be the conditioning to believe when your a mum you have to start dressing ‘ as a mum’ longer clothes being an example x
Having a different hair cut because their a mum Xx changing their whole identity to fit in a society view of what a mum looks like, a mother is a mother in all of her forms x being true to herself, her identity xx i sympathise with the women & men who’ve been mislead & just needs redirecting and that fire putting out so new roots can grow and not be burnt anymore
When I mentioned the age a lot it was this energy I meant x and the aggressiveness that’s been her for too long of respect elders, when the elder would be abusing you sexually, physically emotionally mentally & spiritually x and still forced to obey ‘ respect ‘ x it feels like dishonesty sever programming & judgement & all the rest of it xx
younger people are seen as less then, made obedient & highly misunderstood & underestimated
Ive always felt like children I’d trust more than an adult at most times their core system is closer to joy & love, freedom & acceptance what the world needs x
that’s what I wanted to say yesterday it didn’t feel like I could say it short and simple id of rambled for ages xx
[13:46, 22/11/2025] MaisieEllis<3: Main thing in that I wanna highlight is the way of the mother and how it’s been so limited to express and enjoy x it’s so easy to miss xx
[13:48, 22/11/2025] MaisieEllis<3: I’ve felt so much hatred in my life from middleaged menopausal women x I know sooooo many other young girls feel it too because it’s so deep & strong x I see a lot of girls talk o line about being bullied by Middle Aged women in their workspaces or in public places x
The fear of betrayal & feeling unsafe in their relationship with their husband feels relevant too x
There’s so much to speak about I’ve wanted to talk about it for ages now feels like it’s relevant to voice xx
[13:49, 22/11/2025] MaisieEllis<3: It’s like they was denied their identity x it’s seen in countries like Iran where they are forced to cover x or they are not a women, xx it’s the same root as this manifested differently x
Rachel Otter Notes: 27th November 2025
Okay, so after reflection from last night’s post chat for tower, feedback from other people, I’m just really brought to how we communicate as a whole, and it’s very difficult for people to understand how to use something like the Ho-oppono in real life situations.
And I think the biggest example I can give of space and not taking on and standing firm, standing firm with your what you know to be true.
And then the language that we use from that can come in so many different ways, but the biggest thing we want to do is be kind to each other and not offload how we’re feeling onto somebody else. Thinking that’s what’s their feeling if it’s not how they’re feeling, even if we think it is.
So, the first stage of anything, any feeling arising, Any physical symptom, any emotion that is coming up is, even if it’s been set off and triggered by somebody else, is to initially sit with it and say, Why am I feeling this? Is it safe for me?
Can I put myself in a safe space to voice this, and once you’ve sat with that, is then to be able to say to a group or a friend or whoever, or yourself, and say,
“This is how I’m feeling right now. And I don’t know if this is a collective feeling or just mine, but it feels important to bring it up because of the things we’ve been talking about I am feeling and then literally spelling out how you’re feeling it, how it is making me feel physically sick. This is making my head hurt. It is making me double up. It’s making my face twist in this horrible state. It’s making me want to cry.”
And the more we bring it back to self, the more that is immediately mirrored in somebody else as an understanding anyway, because we’ve all felt like that.
But to hear somebody voice it from themselves and own it, completely own it from your own perspective is where the power and the vulnerability is.
And then ask the question, is this just me that is feeling this right now, or is this a collective feeling?
What are your thoughts on this? Is there something that can be added to it for me to work through this.
And the reason that’s important is because it helps you feel safe and keep safe, although it’s beeing very vulnerable, and it keeps the people around you feeling safe because your stuff isn’t being projected onto them.
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The next part is receiving and dealing with what we are receiving. So if somebody is onslaughting onto us with
you said this, you said that
you’ve made me feel
it’s taking that really big, deep breath, and then saying,
“I am so sorry. I can see how that is making you feel right now, and I can hear how it’s making you feel right now, and I can feel how it’s making you feel right now.
Thank you for showing that to me, and I’m so sorry that that’s how you’re feeling right now,”
and that’s it.
Don’t add anything else onto that.
Just leave that hanging in the air and watch them soften, because they will, because they need to be heard, that they’re feeling that.
and it’s so powerful for us too. it’s the mirror again, and you’re holding that mirror up for them to see, but without the physical Mirror being there, and you’re telling them you can feel it. You can feel what they’re feeling, because that’s how they’re making you feel.
But you’re saying it without saying it.
And the kindness behind that, and the love behind that, and the power behind that is so immense, you will not understand it until you are / we are, all, capable of doing that.
It’s not our place to take on somebody else’s feelings, whether that’s from the collective or personal or as a group.
But thank you so much………. for letting me see and hear and feel how you are feeling,
That is a very vulnerable place to be, and I can see, I can see what it’s taken for you to do that.
So I’m going to honour that space. Do you want to add any more?
If it’s an environment where you can add that on.
That is when we know that we have become embodied in our own learnings. We have embodied the changes.
That doesn’t mean to say that when we come away from that, we’re not going to feel all those things are being brought up with it. We have, but again, that’s not for us to project on.
So then just perhaps going to a mirror, an actual mirror, and saying those things to yourself, “I am so sorry that you are feeling that right now. I can see how it’s making you feel. I can hear how it’s making you feel. Thank you for showing me, just me, right now, what that looks like, feels like”, and honour yourself in that process.
Those three things will be the most powerful things to move us all fully forward that we have.
And that’s only two parts of the Ho-Opponono, bringing in the please forgive me, and I love you, things that you can do to yourself on your own, or then over a photograph of somebody, or over the events and over the situation.
But again, it’s holding that space like we held it on Friday. We held that very securely, though every single one of us wanted to run away, we still held and witnessed that space that was so deeply uncomfortable, it brought up all of those emotions for every single one of us to be honoured and witnessed.
It has to physically come through our bodies, because we chose that. We chose to be here and do that work. And it’s not just a matter of processing it through dreams and through journaling. Sometimes, tt has to physically come through our behaviour and our physical matter and change our cells.
And this is how it does that.
Then we might need to go to the toilet and empty our bowels a lot, or pee a lot, or vomit or cry. But all of those things are part of that release, and those words are part of it. They’re the safe space for us to be held in. The space that everyday life is holding for us may be as basic as sitting on the toilet. We know that is a safe place to do those things because we’ve been trained to sit there for a very long time, since the earliest of our days.
So that’s what we’ll do. It is not an easy thing to do, but actually, once you’ve done it once from that slightly detached place, it’s amazing how you’re able to integrate that faster and faster into new situations, and then hold that space for others, like I did and we did on Friday, because it is the witnessing of each other in everything that we are that softening happens.
I am that raw person who has fear and vulnerability and apathy and exhaustion. I’m also that same person who is full of hope and Creativity and Change and flexibility.
I am all of that, and I’ve had people witness me in all of my states, and now this group is allowing us to witness that in others. Raw states with no judgment, and that with no judgment, is a learning and learning is a practice. It is a learning curve, and if there is judgment there, then let us bring it back to be looked at just not from our own perspective, but again with others looking at it together, to unpick it, to help the process.
We are always going to be shown the duality, the poles playing out side by side. It is the containers that these are in that matter. If they are cast out of the containers then someone feels isolated and left to stew in thoughts and behaviours that are unhealthy and negative. If held with love and compassion to play out until spent that means not rushing off to go and do something else but honouring the space that you are in right now and being fully present with your love and compassion to allow that situation to be learnt from in a nuturing way.
And that is the life birth transition. It is the death of an old you and me and us. It is the death of an ego part of us that has been playing out in all of that transition to be rebirthed moving forward into these new versions of ourselves if we allow it.
And the other option, of course, is to walk away, and that’s okay, too. All of it is okay. The most difficult part of any relationship is staying and working it through, always the most difficult part, but once it’s worked through and you’ve got to the other side, wow, the times I’ve ended up being close friends with people like that is crazy. It’s crazy.
They end up actually being some of the people I can trust the most, because I know they won’t lie. I know they will be truthful, even if I don’t want to hear it, and I usually don’t, they will be the people that I will go to and they will tell me their truth, and I will honour that process, because I know the essence of them.
So I hope this helps and love to us. All. You.
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