Rachels Notes:

Okay, these are my Journal notes from woodwell and after woodwell.

Still calm, powerful holding energy making me giggle with delgith just being here.  Drove up with Sue after an early morning call from my mum at 6am in pain.   We drove up here chatting and calm. Lovely drive and company.

On arrival we opened up the jars of water , tested them with Tasha and Masies in charge and I dowsed everyones energy against the Bovis Scale.

As Julie poured her special tea I offered everyone the chance to stand on the stone in car park and say whay there were here today.  It was a powerful way to start the day and beuaitful to see everyone find their voices. We moved upto the well and began to prepare the alter together.  The Wyrdoscope was on and working (sigh of relief there). After we’d taken our time preparing the alter. 

After lunch this is where I went and sat hidden above the well cocooned within the ancient stones that feel like home.  I’d just been listening to Amy play her whistle and it filled my cup to overflow with joy.  We touched the moss together and it felt magical.  Sat here on my orange shawl blending in with the autum leaves on the floor.  My feet raised against the adjacent stones my whole body is sinking deeper into th energies of the land and the huge rock behind me which is holding me safe and secure in its strength and wisdom.

Faces, dragons, ancient yew strees growing in the rocks like bonsai in the tiniest of pockets of space rooted deep within the tapesty of this golden land.

The alter ceremony was stunning and just before we began a man approached to ask us what were we doing.  We invited him and his family to join us and they asked to take photos.  We asked their names and discovered it was Roses 8th birthday tomorrow.  We sany to her and the ladies gave her gifts from the alter.  She looked quite emotional especially when I explained to her how the rose was one fothe highest vibrations on the planet and associated with unconditioal love.

As I write this I hear 3 guns shots and am reminded of A1 Atlas divine masculine and Feminine energies again. 

We joined hands after the family left and began the ceremony where I brought in the energiesof the 3rd Eye, Horus, 3I Atlas  and the ancient well water and for humanity to welcome their new abilities of using their 3rd Eyes to see again as the return of the lost eye of Horus and Odin are replaced with the all seeing eyes of transparancy. I also brought in my mum and Jim Donaghy for healing and asked the others to bring in any family friends into the circle for healing today as well.

At some point I brought in the East wind movement  and then the South energy of fire and heat.  As I moved from the Fire energy into the Water of the West I was overcome by a huge wave of kudalini energy which was so ecsatic I couldn’t stop laughing and moving and had to ask Julie to take over brining in the disrections and ground us.  The laughter became contagious and we rejoiced together and welcomed in with the Om and our unique voice of sone.  It was truly powerful and beautiful and powerful energy that quake of energy drenching me to my core .

After we had done this I needed a break and suggested we stopped for lunch to recaliberate and this is where I’m writing this in the sanctity and peace of the stones realigning and embodying this stunning potent energy that has just ricoshaid around my system.  WOW Wood Well WOW!

Ah these very potent pockets of land that sing to the very sound of our soul.  Fairy land that deceives our senses to unleash that deeper you. x

We reconveened and Julie began the 13th Womb Rites ceremony and I attended the Oil Blessings at the same time.   I again consciously brought into the 3rd Eye the Frankincense and Myrr oil.  The 3I Atlas energy opening up the all seeing eye of Horus and bringing in all seeing transparancy of truth withthe plasma energy and other energies entering our planet and us right now.  Allowing the integration as we become more and more telepathic and connected to each other and our environments.

From here we moved directly into Sue’s tuning fork ceremoney and everyone got comfortable sitting down.  I’m aware that I need to stand during her session as they are so intense for me physical movement helps me to intgrate it immediately.  As soon as she started again I began to laugh outloud and Om.  I moved to stand in the running water to allow me to flow with the movement of the tuning forks and noticed we were all Omming singing and tuning in with Sue’s forks.  It is such as powerful way to integrate the energies of the day through Sues wonderful tuneing through the chakras.  I could literally feel the yawns, burps, song, tears, joy and laughter surge through me as another relase of the days intentions soar into each note played.

Upon completion we closed down the alter together with ta ceremony and the energies shift so quickly each time we do this.  It’s an immediate shift of ok now move on.  We were collecting water and getting ready to complete the final ceremony  by merging the activated Wood Well water with the divine feminine and masculine energy of the sea down the road.  

We began to take measurements of the water jars. Had we affacted them?  I dowsed us all against the Bovis scale again and there was a definate shift for each of us. 

We drove down to the sea, parked up and walked down to the sea edge.  It was blustery and getting colder so we didn’t mess about.  Julie passed me the activated water and I poured it from our alter into the Sea asking the sea to merge the divine masculine and feminie energy together and to take it to where it needed to go for the balance to be restored in the most loving and compassionate ways possible for all living creatures involved.

5pm:  So immediately after completing the woodwell ceremony, I received a call, noticing many missed calls from my mum’s care home to say that they were wanting to call the ambulance for her. I went to have a hot drink together at a local cafe before setting off. And when I rang the home back whilst I was having a drink, the ambulance was already with her and was going to be taking her to hospital. So I decided to eat at the place where we were because I just knew it would be quite a while before I’d eat if I went to a and e.  It was been a stunning day, and the energy from it was absolutely beautiful, intense. It was like being in this fairy world. And the connections that we made together was deeply, deeply profound. So even when we were at the thingy Haven place where we ate, and I’d fininshed my call with the home I noticed my food was served immediately. I didn’t have to wait where others who’d been served before me were still having to wait. The same for Sue who I was giving a lift back home. The journey was also great. We had a good chat. She ended up talking to her mum on the phone, and we sort of had time to recalibrate into back into normality extremely quickly. No sooner had I dropped Susan off at home the traffic turned really quite bad on the way to bury from Bolton, and I rang up to see exactly where she was, and she’d just arrived at a&e, and she told me to bring one of her oxygen tanks, because she thought she was going to be released quite quickly. I was noticing immediately how many feminine and masculine energies where at play with the types of information coming in  very harsh masculine but softened immediately bu flow and easy or vice verse.

I called at the home, her home to pick up her trolley and oxygen on the way and put that in the car. And when I arrived, I left that in the car and went straight into a and e.

When I got to A and E, it was jam packed. People were in the corridors. The Waiting Room was horrendous. But I walked straight through and found my mum in a bed in a bay being looked after beautifully by the staff.  We had been sending healing to her and to Jim during the Woodwell ceremony, who’s going in for a kidney operation later on next week. And it was as if everything was just beautifully already being put into place with the safety of where she was. They were waiting to do X rays. Had taken samples and things, and at 11 o’clock, I asked how if they if they were going to be possibly keeping her in, they decided to keep her in.  I then went home, which meant I could have a nice Epsom salt bath. And also managed to have a lie in the next day, because she was still waiting for results to come back, more results because her stats had dropped in the morning. So as traumatic as it was with my mom being in A and E, it actually meant that for the first time in a very long time, I was able to get some rest and have a sleep in because I’m with her for at least seven o’clock every morning, and I’m with her every single night until about half past eight. So to be honest, it was a really well earned rest that I needed and I was given. And I thank I thank all our divine helpers for that. So by the time I went to see her, I’d had many work calls and conversations whilst I stayed in bed for the morning, and then when I got up, I gathered everything together and went back over to a&e. Then by the time I arrived at a&e, within the space of half an hour, she’d had her medication allocated to her and had been discharged. We walked out together with trolley and her oxygen into the car and back to the home. She was still in a lot of pain, but she’d got the pain relief, So I was able to start the pain relief  very quickly.  So despite, like I say again, the enormity of what was happening, everything just seemed really smooth in how beautiful it was. She was being looked after so beautifully.  After I’d sorted mum I came back home and I was then absolutely exhausted and crashed out on the sofa.  I realized at 5.30pm that at six o’clock I then needed to be outside in the garden for our Incredible Edible Halloween gathering. I grabbed everything together really quickly, it was nearly dark, and started to put the lights up and the fire on with Alison to greet the children who were in fancy dress. They weren’t allowed anywhere near the fire. Parents were doing the marshmallows and hot chocolate as they passing through the park to go trick with treating. It was lovely with over 50 people passing through. We packed up and by the time we did that, it was about half past seven, nearly eight o’clock at night.  I went back to my mum’s sorted her medication etc and check on her and make sure she was okay. By the time I left there, it was about half 9. and I was goosed. 

It feels that that’s how it’s been absolutely full on since then. So the Monday, Saturday and the Sunday, was very much looking after my mum, Jack’s girlfriend, had come up for the weekend, and I’ve not seen much of them at all Friday, and on the Friday was probably a little bit bumpy with him, because divine masculine and feminine energies were playing out  and it really felt like the divine masculine in him was asking the most really ridiculous questions that He just could have resolved but didn’t want to take responsibility for. My answers I was aware of being  quite dismissive.  (To fall back into that  role of providing the answers to very simple questions when we’ve done such deep work becomes really apparent when other people aren’t even bothered to get on that ladder).  It really affects you. So I noticed that straight away and I may have been quite dismissive of some of the things that he said in front of his girlfriend which I could’ve handled better if I wasn’t so tired.

From the feminine energy point of view, I’m hoping that she may have picked up my content, because she wanted to pick up what he wasn’t prepared to do and I wouldn’t let her. I thanked her, but I said, No, it’s not for you to do that. But thank you very much. It’s for them to pick up these pieces. Now, whether she got that or not again, I don’t know, but there was a very distinct message that I wanted to get across from that.

Then, funnily enough, the next day, they disappeared over to his dad’s and weren’t seen again until Sunday. So I never got to spend any of the weekend with her and him again, because, of course, they’re off with friends and they were busy, which again, meant I got to rest. But again, also makes me feel like missing out on all the good bits with my own family, because of the work that I’m doing & because of the care that I’m doing with my mom. It’s like I’m missing out on my own boys, and I don’t want to do that, and I’m consciously aware of that, so I’m going to be thinking about how that can be rectified a little bit better.

And then the week went on, and on Monday, I was straight into this crucial crew event, which runs for two weeks.   I go over to Bellevue Army Center, and 32 schools are going to pass through the doors in these 10 days. So it got to Monday. I walked the dog at six. I was at my mom’s for half six, quarter to seven. I left there at half past seven. I drove over to Bellevue. Got there for half eight. Sets up the wyrdoscope. Set up all my tally counters. Got out the pens for them to do everything. Put all the posters up, put all the banners up, and then waited for these kids to arrive as I was prepped on the fact that we had just 15 minutes, and we had five groups in the morning and five groups in the afternoon. Can’t tell you how intense that was. Everyone else had got two people with them, and they were able to share the load.

Not only was I delivering, I was counting the data, I was marking the data, and it was all brand new. So I was literally thinking on my feet as I went along. And each group energetically was quite different, so I found myself saying slightly different things, but the content was the same because I needed to get certain things in for them to repeat back the information.

It was really pushing me that last week pushed me right out of my comfort zone again. It was like being back at ITV on Cool Cube when we had 150 kids in a day. And this is exactly what we did. We had 150 plus kids in throughout the day, and I was having to work at lightning speed. And to be honest, I loved it. I absolutely loved it. And when I got back, I realized again, how  energetically tired I was. But straight into making tea, made tea, then went back out to see to my mum, and that’s been the pattern for the last week of doing all of that, and it was beginning to take its toll by the time it got to the end of the week. But then on Thursday, my son woke me up at six o’clock in the morning. Tom saying, mum, mum, mum, mum. I’ve got this pain in my right underneath my rib. I think I’m gonna die. It’s so painful. And then he continued to explain, word for word, exactly the same pain that my mum had a week ago, all over again. He repeats her patterns, word for word, of what she said, where her pain is, and he mirrors it. And I was looking at him in a complete amazement, because I’m still half asleep. Help me….. Im thinking lol.

So Part of me wanted to laugh, part of me wanted to scream, and part of me was absolutely totally helpless, because the connection between mum and Tom is so strong, but they don’t see each other so regularly. So it’s really weird that he plays out the pattern of her life, and that’s exactly what he does. It’s like he plays out the pattern of her life at 22 and she’s 88 mother made that connection this last week. So he’s having mum’s reaction. She’d had all her X rays, all the scans, there was nothing on it. The doctors had said she’d pulled something. They don’t know what she’s pulled. It was we then thought she might be constipated. She was struggling to go to the toilet, so she eventually got to go to the toilet, and it helped when she felt better. Tom also constipated, and I said, Okay, so that’s not going to help. Go to the toilet, and let’s see how you feel afterwards. But all day, he wanted to just phone A and E and go to A and E and go to the doctors, and I was just like see how it played out, to see if this pulled muscle started to heal, and give it some time. It was just this immediate reaction of, I’m dying, fix me now, and I don’t mean to say that in a way that is diminishing the pain that they’re in. It’s just a noticeable reaction that they have whenever they are ill, and they have these massive, both of them have massive emotional reactions again.  And again I noticed it’s every time its associated straight after I’ve done some big energy work. The last time that happened was when the week was why my birthday in June and I did some Reiki/Seichem attunments with two ladies who work in my mum’s home to Level one, and then that night, that afternoon, again, I was called by the home to say my mom was really struggling. They needed to get an ambulance. And I went over and the palliative care team came in, and I ended up doing lots of energy work that night for my mum that was all linked to my birth, because my birthday was a week later, and I ended up doing huge amounts of healing work with her birth, her grandmother, my grandmother’s she was adopted, both mothers grandparents me, and then it went down the line to each of my children. So I felt like I was awake all night doing that energy work into such a state that I actually said, if she needs to go on my birthday, I understand and I understand the ceremonial connection of it all, and if that’s how it needs to be, that’s fine. But then I didn’t expect on my birthday when I went, I had one day off. The palliative team went in and took my mum into the hospice on that very same day, and on that very same day, Tom also started to come down with exactly the same symptoms as my mom. So when I say these things happen, it’s like really massively happens at big, potent times.

So Tom ended up not going to the doctors on the Thursday, but on the Friday, when I went back for the final week day, as I left the building, so to speak, Tom then apparantely started to scream, and Jack went upstairs to see to him. Jack ended up having the day off work to take him to a&e.  Tom then didn’t want to go to A and E, but he ended up going to the doctors. So Jack did stand up, and he took some responsibility massively for being there for his brother. However, Bryn didn’t even ask Tom how he was, which I can’t tell you how hurt and disappointed I am that someone who is living in the same house as another human being wouldn’t even ask that question. Wouldn’t even ask that question. Bryan did however, take the dog to the vet that day and made those decisions himself to leave her there and go back and pick her up as she had tests. So he has got empathy and he has got compassion, but only for me and only for the dog. His empathy and compassion doesn’t extend beyond that. Think it might go towards my mum after seeing him this weekend, but that’s it, and that’s hit me like a real ton of bricks this week. And I’ve really, I’ve really taken a step back emotionally from him and not engaged with him at all, because it’s more of a realization of what am I doing? Is this how I want to live my life? These values are so important to me of looking after other people as well as myself, that to have somebody in my own house not even ask somebody else how they are, nobody’s asking him to do anything. They just checking on them doesn’t even feel humane to me, so I really struggled with that this week, and that’s where I’m at. I’ll do some more later. 

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